tick tick tick

its 4am in the morning, sounds like gwen stefani's song..
anyway, the clocks ticking away and i cant sleep, insomia..
the sickening feeling where you're tired but you cant sleep and so you go online, realise that you've got nothing else to do, and remembered that you actually still have a blog thats so dead and decided to update. so voila, here i am. updating.

gahh.. still cant sleep.

moving on, i still have one last miserable term left for my so-called higher diploma or 1st year degree, some might say, then its the much dreaded finals in which i eventually have to face like all my fellow friends, who are taking it better than i am, u noe. perhaps the pressure is not felt yet. too early, i suppose. its in march. though, its killing me softly now.. pathetic me, dying a slow death from unnecessarily worrying.

besides the point that i am slacking my butt off since the begining of the term.. im just so, wadda ya call it? moodless? semangat-less could be more accurate, actually. i gotta stop, i keep telling myself.. stop feeling this way, like some dead wood floating in this lonely river.. but then again, am i the only one feeling this way? there could be others you know.. hmm..

there's nothing motivating me to feel motivated.. motivation! where are you!? its like a game of hide and seek really. will "it" finally come out of its hiding place after i scream "i give up"? wont it be too late then as my days are numbered.. and the end is nearer than it seems..

ahhh.. theres alot going on in my pea-sized brain right now.. more than i can digest in any regular day.. stressed out... the few hours of joyfully cycling around my neighborhood went as fast as it came.. that little ounce of happiness wasnt sufficient to last me even until the next morning..

im really trying not to let myself sink even deeper in the downy dumps lately... so, ive been keeping myself occupied with some random acts, namely, cycling late at night, baking and baking and baking.. although u do tend to get even more stressed up when ur cookies dont turn out the way u wanted 'em to. and of course, the best ever therapy available for me, retail therapy. funny how my mood just lightens up after a good day of purchasing a bunch of clothes.. with my friends of course.. its the company that counts mostly :)

okay, i better stop drowning myself in my own self-pity or watever you may want to call it. besides, my eye bags are just about deep enough i think.

bonne nuit!

and it's love...

TIME is . . .

Too slow for those who wait,

Too swift for those who fear,

Too long for those who grieve,

Too short for those who rejoice,

But for those who love,

Time is eternal.

-author unknown-

and yet . . .

Time is the enemy of love,

The thief that shortens

All our golden hours.

I have never understood then

Why lovers count their happiness

In days and nights and years,

While our love can only be measured

In our joys and sights and tears.

-V. J. Rajadhon-

and now, what say you?

...brings out the shopaholic in me.

I was literally doing nothing productive, yet again, at work today. So, I sped off to MPH to get myself a magazine to not make myself feel so useless and also to kill the boredom-ness in me. But everything is like above RM15.00 or RM10.00 so i decided to get myself a last month's issue on the first day of the next month. Not too behind, eh? I know, cheapskate much? I'm trying to save, alright? =P

Well anyway, I bought myself the September issue of Marie Claire for RM8.00, inclusive of one baby blue MC tote bag. Now, that's what I call worth it. Plus, there's this little booklet of the new Radley Autumn Winter 2008 Collection which is available NOW and I've got this RM50.00 voucher from the booklet andd I'm dying for one of the bags from their gorgeous collection of handbags anddd my birthday is coming.. so.. anyone out there, pretty please?? *shows hopeful face*

New books~

Well, today's my off day from work so i went and got a few things done. First, i went to college to pay the graduation ceremony fee which is like RM250! So expensive right!? In case you were wondering, it covers the graduation robe, photgraphy shots, tea reception and admission tickets into the Grad Hall for 2 guests of my choice. I wonder what they'll serve in the tea recepton by charging us that amount. Caviar? =P

Anyway, its like a really formal event. Men in suits, with tie and all and women in skirts/dresses and court shoes. Now my mom's bugging me to buy her one because she's afraid of being banned from entering the hall. Gosh, she thinks way too much sometimes. Children below 12 aren't allowed. My brother can't come =(

After that I headed to the library to get more books. I could only get 4 this time and not 5 because my mom is still reading the James Patterson one when I've left it lying around the house for like a week already and she had to notice the book and start reading it only like yesterday... So, here are my current boredom busters-

1] That's the old one, as in, I've read it before. Ironically, it looks the 'newest' when compared with the rest.

2] Are You Afraid Of The Dark? by Sidney Sheldon. Again you ask? I know.. Haha... Just can't get enough of his books.

3] My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult. I was scanning through the novels at the book shelf when the topic of this book caught my eye. "If you use one of your children to save the life of another; are you being a good mother or a very bad one?" Seems to be pretty interesting to me as it focuses on difficult moral choices... plus, the cover is nice=)

4] Bloodline by Sidney Sheldon. Can't wait to start this one, a page-turner for sure.

5] The Sands Of Time by Sidney Sheldon. Can't wait to start this too!

C'est tout. Au revoir!

gloriousss days...

Making it glorious at Gloria Jean's Coffee! Here's my first attempt at latte art-

My heart shape like tak jadi >.<>

I experienced my first ever coffee delivery yesterday. Around 3pm on a BRIGHT and SUNNY Wednesday afternoon, my co-worker, Lea received a phone call from a Miss T. She is from the next door building, Wisma C, from P&G company. She ordered 8 cups of coffee from us and we were screamin with joy on finally having something to do because we were all so bored with the lack of business. 4 cups of lattes, 1 iced chocolate, 1 irish nut creme, cappucino chillers and er, cant remember the rest. Well, you get the idea lah.

Then, the coffees were ready. Lea and me were going to deliver it. We were happily walking till McD's and that was when we heard raindrops and possible, thunder. Slowly, we turned our heads to the window and found out it was raining cats and dogs outside. =.= @#$% Shit! So unlucky! I mean, one minute it was bright and the sun was shining and next thing you know, pouring rain. Anyway we went back to GJ's and called Miss T to tell her the situation.

"Could you get an umbrella or something and please deliver it before my coffee gets cold."

That was all she said. Damn. Bicthy much? Lea was already cursing. So we tried lending umbrella but the dumbo aunties at the Guest Service counter won't even lend us the raincoats because they said it was only for shopper's use. Okayy... You think what, we're gonna steal or tear those bloody raincoats is it. Finally, the girls at YR boutique borrowed us their ONE and only SMALL umbrella and we were off.

We came back drenched in rainwater. My sneakers and socks were soaked and half of my body was terribly wet. Soooooo cold. Grr... grr.. grr.. So uncomfortable. Yerh.

So much for the Free Delivery, considering the trouble we went through to get her the still HOT and NOT COLD coffee. Bah. Unappreciative bitch, just because you work at some big-ass company, doesn't give you the right to treat people like dirt.

Emo.

For a while only. Hehe.

i miss college

i really do. i drove pass my high school the other day and i really miss those days. haihhh.. and now i miss college. but then again, i've got projects, commis to find for kitchen classes and assignments.. but in spite of all that, i still cant wait to get back. hu hu hu...

i went to the college library today. borrowed 5 novels. sadly, thats the maximum. i would've borrowed more. honest. working in gloria jean's is like being part of the furniture. ok ok, im kidding, but quite close. haha. so let's see, ive got:-

1. the secret garden by frances hodgson burnett
[didnt watch the movie till the end so, i'll read the book then]

2. the 5th horseman by james patterson and maxine paetro
[i guess this would be the next in line after the 4th of july in the women's murder club, thrilling!]

3. the potrait of a lady by henry james
[i just love those classic english novels during those king henry viii times, but ive never heard of this one, hope it'll be a good find]

4. memories of midnight by sidney sheldon
[this would be a re-read :-) one of my will-never-get-bored books]

5. windmills of the gods by sideney sheldon
[cant wait to start this one, can sense that it'll be full of suspense, intrigue and passion or at least that's was what is printed on the covers. page turner for sure.]

i finished puzo's godfather in a day so i've got all of this to last me a week=)

and kehlen, i miss you lahh. faster come back to go yumcha or go breakfast with me kays.. hehe=)

do we look alike? =)

i <3 coffee

currently working in gloria jean's at subang parade. do come and drop by to visit me=)

i'll put some extra marshmallow in your hot chocolate xD

do check out their latte art as well- [sorry, cant upload pic]

reading : the godfather by mario puzo

listening : fall for you by secondhand serenade